Week 2.37: Growing

Week 2.37: Growing is a photo I took this past weekend in my beloved Old Town. I was sitting on an outdoor patio with two of my besties having a wonderful brunch lunch under a grape arbor. Heaven. We celebrated a birthday by going to the museum to see van Gogh (and many others). Again. Heaven. Then we went to a favorite little corner of the world to eat and chat. Good times.

Still, in keeping with some issues I've been contemplating, I have to admit that Growing is a rough business for me. I want to say, "especially lately," but I think it's always the case, not just right now.

Yes. I was inspired by van Gogh. And Turner. And Monet. And the Davies girls who built such an impressive collection. And the museum and staff who are hosting. I did some math, too. (Mark it on the calendar, folks.) The Davies girls started collecting at the ripe ages of 24 & 26.

I feel like a failure. I haven't got anything close to what they had going in their mid-twenties. At least, I haven't got anything like a definitive collection of paintings.

I have other things, though. Like a one-of-a-kind painting by Camille Fontaine. And a one-of-a-kind painting by Fred Doty. And Leah Schmee. And Annie W. And a fabric art by Missus. And a quilt by Miss MorningGlory. And a necklace by Leah Schmee. And jewelry by H. May. And the collection is Growing.

It's not my Growing art collection that's painful, though. It's other things. Like balancing myself out. Physically. Emotionally. Mentally. Spiritually. Financially. Domestically. Internationally. (Haha, I just had to throw that one in to see who's reading and what your reaction was right about there!!!!)

Really, though, I told my friend's dad this past weekend that I'm a domestic terror, Threat Level Orange. Just ask Amanda-the-girl-I-used -to-babysit about my mad mac & cheese skills. Or ask me to tell you about my nightmare of a dinner party I hosted with a lime theme. It was for my ex's two (pretty impressive) bosses. One's wife was allergic to lime. The other's wife was a vegan. I did fajitas. Danger.

Back to my point, ADD Girl: Growing.

I was inspired by this little cluster of grapes Growing right above me. Simple. Fresh. Earnest. Strong lines with potential. Inspired. Reaching. Unassuming. Hard at work, still graceful. Lovely.

I've got a long way to go. I'm still working some kinks out. Nowhere near perfect. But I already have a lot to offer. It's time to focus on what I am rather than on what I'm not. Because, while I'm not 100% sure about everything, I've got some good direction and I'm building momentum.

I'm Growing.